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世界如此美好，我却如此暴躁！

这样不好！不好！

The best way to learn MATLAB is to use it

One good guide book for MATLAB novice:

MATLAB guide, 2nd edition–by Higham, Desmond J. & Higham, Nicholas J.

Storm–hurricane and financial crisis

Couple months ago, it was Bear Stearns, and now it is Lehman Brothers plus Merrill Lynch. U.S. is suffering from not only hurricane, but also financial/economic storm. NASD has plunged, which in turn depresses the whole market within and beyond U.S. Desperate faces could be seen in stock exchange markets around the world. Unlike what happened to Bear Stream, Fed is not to bailout Lehman Brothers, which tried but failed to find a buyer itself.

One article from New York Times:

On Wall St. as on Main St., a Problem of Denial

殷勤昨夜三更雨，又得浮生一日凉。

老苏是个天才。单诗词已然大家，更兼书画、文章。此番才情暂且不论，只他宦海沉浮，仍旷达豪放的胸襟已是万万人之上。但他批李煜的破阵子: “后主既为樊若手所卖，举国与人，故当恸哭于九庙之外，谢其民而后行，顾乃挥泪宫娥听教坊离曲哉！”实是无谓。李煜本错生帝王家，如若恸哭九庙之外，便也不是李煜了。

浮生一日，蜉蝣一生；累世一觉，春秋一梦。

有感

一叶扁舟轻渡，青山渐览，可曾老。

数载江湖优游，人情浅尝，未逍遥。

远行的冲动–An Impulsion of Traveling

George Sand说过，旅行就是普通人逃离平日的生活。我则觉得远行是一种生活态度。如果单要放松，以今日的技术，大可不必车马劳顿。事实上，真正的旅行总还是累人的，但乐此不疲的大有人在。“在路上”，更多的是一份心情，一份向着一花一草微笑的心情；一份期待，一份看进每个过客眼里的期待；一份冲动，一份抛掉所有、背包上路的冲动。陌生的地方，陌生的人，陌生的际遇…..虽然最终可能只是又一次的平常，但对于起身上路的人，潜意识里总有着罗曼蒂克的设想。去沙漠，那会不会曾经有过另一个楼兰；去大海，海底有没有亚特兰蒂斯城。访古，能不能遇到先贤的魂魄；游今，有没有异士的掌故。即使去一座城市，保不准撞见都市童话，又或者黑帮火拼。

前天，看到别人拍在虎跳峡的照片，血液里的冲动瞬间引爆，很有马上启程的劲头。那可是滇藏，无数人心中的香格里拉，也是我一定要去的地方。很久前就挂在嘴边的滇藏线、川藏线、青藏线、新藏线，直到今天还没实现，忽然明白原来“踏遍青山人未老”很有些难度。但是，似乎每个背包客又都有着一张青春的脸，至少在远行时，他们脸上的细纹和斑点都是模糊的，模糊在山林河泽、旷野天地间。也是，当整个人都在天地的衬托下缩成一个原始的点，我们又怎能看清那些细纹斑点？幕天席地的洒脱、江青月近的淡然，这些恐怕就是冲动的来源吧。

鬼にも涙–淡淡夏日黄昏的芳香

七月新番中有一部叫作《夏目友人帐》，和《百鬼夜行抄》（改编的电视剧当然就没有原作那么有神韵了）一样是讲人和妖怪的关系。

一直很喜欢妖怪的故事和题材，比如《モノノ怪》，哦，对了，好像捉妖人总和猫有千丝万缕的联系。

嘛，其实妖怪大都很可爱，可怖的反而是人呢。

夏目友人帐公式

片尾曲–夏夕空

色付く西空に

差し込む一筋の日

夕立の雨上がりに

気づく　夏のにおい

ひしめく光が照らす思いに

耳をすませば聞こえし友の面影

夏夕空　香り立つ

鮮やかな過ぎ去りし日々

心のまま　笑いあった

あの夏の思い出よ

绯色渐染西方天空

漏下一缕阳光

骤雨初霁

嗅觉那夏日气息

充满斑驳阳光的回忆里

侧耳倾听，那是昔日友人的旧影

夏日夕空，清香漫溢

韶光似锦

心意互达，相视而笑

那是夏日的回忆

The Play “Proof”

Yesterday, I went to watch a play called “Proof“, which was awarded 2001 Pulitzer Prize for Drama and 2001 Tony Award for Best Play. It was originally produced in Manhattan Theatre Club and then went to Broadway, and the adopted film was released in 2005, directed by John Madden and starred by Gwyneth Paltrow, Anthony Hopkins, Jake Gyllenhaal and Hope Davis.

A story about genius, someone admiring genius, someone struggling hard to be as close to a genius as possible, it intrigues me far beyond all of these. The heroine Catherine is 25 years old at Act One, ironically, the same age I’m now. She hasn’t really “worked” since her dad getting bad, and actually she quit from undergraduate, not to mention graduate school. However, born to be a daughter of a genius mathematician, she does have talent on mathematics, which seems to already be part of her nature, although most of the time, she denies this fact. The story isn’t that out of imagination, but as “ordinal” as I could anticipate, however, it makes me think a lot when Catherine first said to her father’s ex PhD student Hal, ‘you just don’t wanna believe someone could do all these work who wasn’t a graduate student, and who even didn’t finish her undergraduate, while you have been struggled years to get your PhD degree.’ Something like that, maybe not exact. I could now understand why some people always leave theatres full of tears. I felt my throat congested by something, some mixed emotions I could not tell or which I just don’t want to face.

I was deeply fascinated with geniuses and their stories since I was a three or four-year-old girl. Instead of playing toys or dolls, I played medical instruments as well as laboratory wares. My tales were never ever about Cinderella, Princess, and their happy ending with Prince, but about Madam Curie’s Ra, X-ray and the ring of Ringen’s wife, Einstein’s theory of relativity, and so on. Such a passion drove me to collect every edition of biography of Marie Curie I happened to see, to feel or believe that crazy scientists always had a natural affinity for me, and to try to be another Frankenstein myself. Years and years passed, and now I’m in graduate school, doing research, however I start to forget my original motivation, that kind of crazy passion which makes me afraid, impulsed, but more, excited and exalted. They’re away from me or more exactly, not as strong as they used to be. I’m afraid of being a person like Hal, a person as common as the commons. I know there’s a long long way ahead, but I don’t know where it will take me to.

President Faust’s Speech to Harvard Class of 2008

Baccalaureate address to Class of 2008

‘You are at a moment of transition that requires making choices.”

“You won’t know till you try. But if you don’t try to do what you love — whether it is painting or biology or finance; if you don’t pursue what you think will be most meaningful, you will regret it. Life is long. There is always time for Plan B. But don’t begin with it. “

“I think of this as my parking space theory of career choice, and I have been sharing it with students for decades. Don’t park 20 blocks from your destination because you think you’ll never find a space. Go where you want to be and then circle back to where you have to be.”

An inspiring “parking space” theory. Most of us would become more and more puffed up with conceit, thinking we know the world, the crowed and ourselves, thinking we could make a best pathway of ourselves. However, we easily got frustrated as soon as there showed up some obstacle on the pathway. It’s always a benefit to learn from those who have experienced everything, even though we are facing different circumstances from the older generations.

The whole address could be found on website: http://www.president.harvard.edu/speeches/faust/080603_bacc.html

won soccer game!

So tied after soccer game…but we won. That’s the point! I played defense and did a good job, maybe?

Now our team is ranking the 2nd among total 5 with a record of “2 wins, 1 lost, 0 tie”. Well, this is only the first half of the league, still 6 teams standing along. We’ll see whether we could get a better result than last season.